I actually wrote this a few days ago on the 3rd of march but at that point I had no internet:
I realised the other day that I talk more often about the past than the present. I dwell on things that have
happened, things I remember and things that have changed whether they be good, bad or indifferent.
This made me think and I’ve decided that it’s because I’ve lost some of my momentum and ability to see into the
future. If you’ll pardon a brief look back, then I can see where I used to have plans and dreams.
I still do. The difference is that I now believe most of my dreams to be unattainable so I’ve taken what I’ve got
and fallen into a rut with it.
So, I’m trying to shake up my increasingly normal life before I become utterly introverted and dogged under by the
mundanity that is being an adult. This means venturing into the unknown, trying new things, going new places and
meeting new people, all things that I am irrationally scared of.
I think the easiest way for me to do this is to try or do something new or different every day. I’m going to
attempt to ressurect old hobbies as well as, hopefully, gaining some new ones and picking up some new skills.
In an attempt at being logical I’ve started all this by making a list of things that I like or have liked in the past. I’m also doing the LearnDirect skills and interests test to see what that throws up. Then I’m going to make a basic list of
things that I definitely want to have accomplished, or at least attempted, before 3rd March 09. Though managing to do something every day might be beyond me- I think trying to get 300 things done is feasible!
I’ve started by actually writing all this down- these sorts of things usually stay in my head!
I’ll write the list up seperately shortly.
Wish me luck folks!
